While I have always respected folks who are hard workers, I’ve never been able to see eye-to-eye with these blue-collar types. So naturally, I always felt out of place. I wasn’t really good at sports either. And I never had a huge posse of friends. I just, melted, into the background. And that’s how I liked it.
Today. I’m an engineer struggling to quit my day job and become a filmmaker. Although I would consider myself a logical thinker, I have an artistic side that needs to be freed.
As far my “belief system” goes, I have recently declared myself an atheist. I’ve never bought into religion as a whole – since I was twelve, actually. But it wasn’t until recently that I was comfortable enough in my own skin to be proud to announce my beliefs to the world. I believe in personal empowerment and knowledge. Take no one’s word for anything and question as much as possible. Not as a cynic, which I am proud to admit that I am not; but as a student of our world.
I’m also a struggling racist. I was raised to hate anyone not of my own color. The analytical part of my brain tells me otherwise, but it’s so engrained within me that I literally have to try not to say and feel certain ways which contradict my recent belief structure. I am, however, making a conscious effort to allow a person’s actions to sway my emotions instead of the color of one’s skin.
So, this is me, in a very abbreviated fashion. Feel free to read my posts to find out what makes me “Rage.” Otherwise, ask me anything. I’ll respond with something… *smile*